the person who probably loves me the most in this world is my mom.
i don’t know why i’m so rude and unkind to her sometimes, when i actually do love her so much too.
i wonder if it’s out of habitual self defense – in any case i feel bad about it.
sorry mom, i love you.
it’s so easy to say these words to anyone else but somehow i never muster the courage to say them to you. sigh.
i just woke up. dreamt that i was on a holiday with a group of friends, and they decided to go swimming at the hotel before heading out. because they all wanted to take a swim first and we were taking turns to shower, i decided to forgo the swim and be the first to use the bathroom.
so anyway when i was in the toilet, a friend who was supposed to be downstairs swimming came up to the hotel room and passed me 2 polaroids they took at the pool. THEY WERE SWIMMING WITH DOLPHINS!!! needless to say i was dumbfounded that i missed out on the opportunity.. :(
before i carry on— if the dream doesn’t make sense to you, yes i feel that way too now that i’m awake and trying to journal it! hahaha but its not important so don’t bother trying to figure it out if you don’t quite understand…
so here comes the most classic part. i was still in the toilet/bathroom and i was feeling all sulky that i missed out on the fun. i sat down on the toilet seat and started to pee. and i felt warmth. !!!!! omgg i immediately woke up. i can’t believe it- a 21 year old just peed in her bed. goodness!!
was gonna tweet about this but wasn’t sure how everyone else would respond hahahha. here i am instead! i wonder if there are other people out there/ friends who experienced peeing in their beds (doesn’t count if they were kids)…
okay that’s all for now. this i the first thing i did after waking up in shock and going to the toilet to finish my peeing.. shall go start studying for advertising now!! got a midterm tmr!
I’ve hardly shopped online until recently when I bought makeup and dance stuff from US because of greater variety to choose from –> translating into ability to buy better quality or more suitable stuff for cheaper than if I buy them from Singapore.
Now i know why i always seeing people blogshop!! ITS DAMN ADDICTIVE!!!
This is what usually happens…
I study for 15 minutes and start to lose focus. Instead of going onto facebook and be disappointed because there are no new notifications or visible activity on my wall, I go to an online shop. I’ve been wanting to buy a white dress for a long time. I click on dresses –> no need to walk around different sections just to find a white dress! I can tick the “white” check box under color, SORT BY PRICE or SORT BY POPULARITY (my two favorite sort functions)
ding ding!!! omg all white dresses appear. when i click on sth i like, they show me similar items they have. !!! and then i’ll have the urge to load my shopping cart with 10 dresses that look super similar!! doesn’t make sense at all but i’m sure i’m not the only one.
so last month i ended up spending almost $3k cos i went a bit crazy with the shopping. decided to rein back my spending and swore not to shop online anymore.
Since then the only item i bought online was a tweezerman tweezer set!
And i finally bought something today…
Meltie!! It’s an “organic cleanser/makeup remover that can remove all makeup in 1 minute” The packaging is super cute! Looks like ice cream right? It comes with a spatula that you use to scoop the creamy stuff out- the ‘ice cream’ foams after mixing with water. woohoo sounds like so much fun hehe
lime, aloe and strawberry melties!
Saw some favorable reviews online and even though they seemed like paid reviews I decided to buy it anyway because my eyes are very sensitive and often swell after using makeup remover, and Meltie claims that it is ophthalmologist tested. i’ve tried many makeup removers and the best i’ve used so far are shu uemura, maybelline and fancl. even then, my eyes never fail to react by swelling up monstrously so let’s see if MELTIES is as good as it claims!!
the website i ordered from: melties.com.sg said it’ll will arrive in 7 working days. will do an update post when i try it! :D
so daniel suggested that i post about how im always thinking about food and wanting to eat something cos ‘its so nice’ even though i keep telling myself i’m not supposed to eat so much!
it happens EVERY SINGLE MOMENT OF MY LIFE im serious!!! it baffles him how i can be constantly thinking about food but honestly it dumbfounds me too!
for example, from the start of corp reporting class today i was nibbling on my salad –> lettuce + turnip + eggs. once i was done with the salad i was dreaming about the toasted ham and cheese sandwich from ohmyfruits. and i’m the sort who wants to eat lots of stuff but dont want to become fat (though its usu one or the other, unfortunately) so i was wondering whether i should eat the ham and cheese sandwich from the neighbouring stall instead.
you see, the h&c sandwich from delight (the neighbouring stall) has MAYO which is unhealthy, but it isnt toasted. so i will usu eat it by combining the two triangle sandwiches into one, and removing two triangular halves of bread (equivalent to a slice) also conveniently using these pieces of bread to attempt removing the mayo. it sounds messy but with skill it is ALRIGHT hahahahha!
yes so i was debating between..
(1) delight ham and cheese sandwich
ham and cheese + 1 slice of bread + some leftover mayo + negligible amount of lettuce
(2) ohmyfruits ham and cheese sandwich
ham and cheese + 2 slices of toasted bread
alas, i made the best decision of NOT buying the sandwich altogether!! i almost gave myself a pat on the back…
then after class upon knowing that daniel once again pangseh me (you owe me hor daniel) cos he couldn’t wake up, i went to buy the sandwich from ohmyfruits. but because i was feeling extra greedy i bought the yoghurt parfait on top of the sandwich!
once again, i needed to make a choice…. (wa damn tiring i tell you..)
(1) low fat yoghurt + fruits + kelloggs cornflakes
(2) low fat yoghurt + fruits + post banana nut crunch cereal
i was quite sure kelloggs cornflakes has less calories than banana nut crunch, so my head was telling me to buy the first option. but i really like banana nut crunch, so i asked the lady what the fruits are in the two yoghurt parfaits. i was hoping that she would say that the banana nut crunch one came with strawberries and the kelloggs came with banana so i could justify buying the banana nut crunch one (strawberries has less calories than banana). to my disappointment, she said that both of them had the same fruits!!! dammit. BUT i still couldn’t resist the banana nut crunch in the end.
so yeah i bought banana nut crunch yoghurt parfait + ham and cheese sandwich from ohmyfruits!
i ate the food happily outside SOA, and when i was done i was still feeling super greedy + hungry. was now dreaming about sal happy! i need some chicken!!! but my car was parked at carlton and glassroom cafe is quite a distance away at SIS. and it’s gonna be another 5 bucks or sth. so expensive!! and i already ate so much… i did the right thing and resisted it, walking towards the library..
then, i saw picknbite. CHEESE TOFU!!! i want!! i gazed through the glass, looking at the sticks of cheese tofu longingly. thankfully the queue was long enough and gave me good reason to resist my temptation. decided to take the escalator down towards koufu because i was still thinking of buying cheese tofu and koufu also sold cheese tofu……. the whole time i was on the escalator i was thinking “to buy or not to buy? to buy or not to buy??”
and I RESISTED FOOD ONCE AGAIN! wow so proud of myself! i walked down to circle line, thinking about what food there was from school to carlton where my car was parked. thankfully, no food – carlton buffet too expensive for me! but i do remember feeling very envious when i saw two women inside carlton’s cafe munching on salad from the buffet spread…
digressing for just a moment- i took out my matric card at the bras basah mrt gantry and couldn’t tap it!
first epic fail: i should have used my ezlink card not my matric card
second epic fail: I DROVE TO SCH WHY THE HELL AM I TRYING TO TAKE THE TRAIN!!!
must be thinking about food too much. thank goodness i realized my mistake and was back on track to walking towards my car..
now back to my food obsession/thoughts….
now i reached home and even though i knew i ate enough already, i still went to the kitchen and dining area to look for food (it has become routine for me to at least check the fridge for new stuff to eat whenever i reach home) didn’t find much.. i poured some wheatgerm into my mouth (love that stuff!!) and took a container of miso soup and drank directly from it.. HAHAHAHA instant gratification in an ultra pig-like manner!!
then chamina offered to heat up the soup for me and i went upstairs to my room. and here i am now. i can’t believe all this went through my head in the short 1 hour!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wtf man, no wonder i’m always so tired, i must be expending too much brain power thinking about eating/not eating, eating this/eating that. LOL
okay if this is interesting, let me know so i can freely post similar stuff next time. if this is just sounds damn lame and long to you let me know too so i will try to refrain from boring you!!
in either case hopefully i can keep up with the posting. i tend to get excited and post quite regularly for a period then stop for months hahaha
<3!
fell asleep at church again today. whyyy!! sigh :(
my mom asked me: do you fall asleep during class too?
i was trying to picture her reaction if i said “yes i fall asleep in class too” and it went something like this…
“what??! you are too much! in class also fall asleep! i always tell you to sleep earlier right nothing to do also sleep so late..”
so i said “no la class of course dont sleep” instead, even though i ALWAYS fall asleep in class, so much so that there was once a prof asked me “why do you always fall asleep in my class? am i very boring?” to which i explained that idk why but i seem to fall asleep in every class, and he responded “oh so i’m not supposed to take this personally?” LOL okay anyway back to the conversation between my mom and i..
GUESS WHAT SHE SAID WHEN I SAID “no la class of course don’t sleep”? “you can stay awake in class, then why can’t you stay awake in church??” dammit. guess my answer after elimination was still wrong!! she went on to talk about how i should change my attitude and actually ATTEMPT to listen right from the start. and i really do, i swear! its just veryy veryyy boringggggg. the speakers tend to go at a snail like pace, they have to give a few examples and 10-15 minutes just to prove a point and halfway through my mind just wanders off to dreamland. then again, maybe the problem lies with me, because i can also recall times when i complain that the lectures/seminars are too fast so i cant catch up, feel lost then fall asleep..
ya too fast also their fault, too slow also their fault, hahahahaha guess i’m like my mom! seriously though, i DO need some tips on keeping awake :( this is terrible. i wish my body can naturally and permanently stay on moda-mode. D:
on a completely unrelated note, daniel surprised me with real steel today! it was a great movie! the little boy is so cute haha.. ang moh babies/kids are so freakin cute! this doesn’t mean i’m not proud to be asian, but i honestly think sg babies are usu damn annoying and nerdy cos they wear glasses, bring huge schoolbags and files, attend lots of enrichment classes/tuition, and go “orh hor i tell teacher”!!! Especially the last one, DAMN IRRITATING!! i’ll try my best not to let my future kid become like that. shall be the cool mom HAHAHA!
ok just realised its 1am! RECESS IS WEEK IS OVER! (mommy, its over!!) shall start my day with a BIG BANG- Corporate Reporting and Financial Analysis! it’s almost as torturing as it sounds. the good thing is my Marketing Research prof is away in NY for seminar so i won’t have class on Tues and Thurs. WOOHOO only Mon and Fri morning class! so slack!!!
‘im a slacker im a slacker im a slacker with 3 mods and 2 classes this week!!’ happily chanting
TIME FLIES i dont care if the phrase is overused – time really does fly past so quickly!!!
Feels like I just started coming to school, and it’s just a few more weeks to presentations, finals and what-not. D: D:
But life is great!
I realised that I’ve managed to turn my blog into a place i rant and complain/whine when I don’t have anyone else to talk to (which wasn’t my intent i swear), but this time this is not the case! —> i repeat: LIFE IS GREAT
that’s because i’m only in Caderas now, i’ve stepped down from exco, and i’m only taking 3 mods this semester! i’m conveniently ignoring the fact that i haven’t done my internship and i’m only doing 3 mods now because i stupidly committed a fail rebid and will need to chiong 5 mods every sem from now onwards to graduate on time. hahahaha when life gives you lemons you make lemonade right? lorna says when life gives you lemons you take those lemons and feel happy! (y)
and after all that daniel and i have been through the past year- being blamed for other people’s own wrongdoings, getting flak for getting together, arguing over caderas work, pulling our hair out cos of less-than-ideal members- i really think we’ve emerged stronger both individually and as a pair.
in the past, i used to think everything had to be ‘perfect’. if we fought, i got extremely upset not just at whatever we were fighting about, but also at the fact that ‘what we had’ was marred by unhappiness and disagreement. slowly i’ve realized that no matter how close, people always disagree. how we handle and eventually resolve it speaks much more than the disagreement itself. as much as i still fear sadness hurt and anger now, i also see them as opportunities for us to rely on each other for comfort and solace, or opportunities for us to give in to each other to show that we care and self-sacrifice. in this way, we are growing every moment be it good or bad, happy or sad…
of course, this doesn’t apply if your bf treats you like crap/dirt, for eg cheating, being rude and disrespectful etc. if he doesn’t respect you and care for you enough, don’t give in just because you love him. you deserve better!! better off single than have someone you love causing you pain every now and then because he doesn’t treasure you! this goes out to my beautiful friend, also known as ‘goddess’ by some guys haha. eligible suitors lined up from smu all the way to ntu/nus please, it’s his loss not yours!
hmm somehow i always stray from my title. should rename my blog lorna rambles! or lorna randomly rambles! may i ramble more often, i see daniel diligently finding topics to post about and i feel bad for posting such rambly sparse posts…
or maybe i should also find topics to post about instead of merely rambling whatever comes to mind? maybe you tell me what you would prefer! or what you think others might prefer!
hahaha that is if someone is gonna comment :D if you do i give you a horlicks malties! my current favourite sweet!!!
till the next post, farewell my friends! have a great Sunday before we are all plagued by monday blues……………… (noooooo recess week is ending!!) <– bookend technique in effect. :D jk.
If i’m not supposed to post on fb nor twitter nor blog about it, and I have no one to talk to, what I am supposed to do?
In the past I might have gone to my parents but now things have changed.
Wish I can just swallow my thoughts and fart them out without a care in the world.
Really don’t wish to deal with all this drama and tension. I’m never going to be good enough.
i’ve finally taken that leap of faith to leave Emix. Did not want to let go, but as time passes it becomes clear to me that I don’t see myself doing Hip Hop after Emix, and I should really start to prioritize and spend my time wisely.
Everytime I look back on the photos and think about the times I’ve spent in Emix though, it feels like I’ve been missing out on so much during the time I stopped going for practices. Not so much the trainings, but the company…
Always wonder if things will be the same if I hadn’t ran for exco. Would it change how I feel about being in Caderas? And something else that I often wonder is how the rest feel about being in the club? Don’t think I’ll ever know, especially not so soon. I do hope it’s happy and memorable…
One thing for sure. Gossip never does a group good, and the club will be much better off without it. On my part though, instead of dealing with it graciously, I’ve been very grudging and sore about it. I’ve always been someone who complains a lot (unfortunately, yes, and I only found out in the past year). Might be due to my parents influence, but anyway. And I’m slowly realizing that I have cared too much about what others think, what others say, been too quick to anger. Also been slipping away from God, backsliding since my days in JC… But the recent sermon reminded me that we need to retaliate with love. Have been trying to keep that in mind and not to let it get to me, but instead be a positive change- right now I haven’t really improved. It’s difficult. But we just gotta keep trying don’t we?
i was on harpersbazaar.com when i stumbled on before-after photos of Marc Jacobs.
some of us might know him to be the handsome, well groomed man in the next photo
marac jacobs in 2009:
marc jacobs after
but this was him in 2006
marc jacobs before
omg!! shocking. it shows that good grooming goes a long way! so the chinese saying “there’s no ugly women, only lazy women” should apply to guys as well.
anyway, for those who haven’t heard of marc jacobs, he is the head designer of Marc Jacobs and its cheaper (diffusion) line Marc by Marc Jacobs, and the creative designer for Louis Vuitton. and he’s gay.
marc jacobs and then-husband lorenzo martone
how come so many handsome/cute/smart guys are gay?? what’s wrong with girls?
it’s been a long long time since i last posted. in fact, i don’t think i’m gonna be posting regularly even from now. too many things in my life now that i can’t talk about because
1) i don’t want more haters
2) some things in my life are better kept private
well ANYWAY. after Caderas training today we went to check out the Animal Day tent at SMU’s Campus Green. It was quite miserable, there were quite a number of stalls but hardly any participants. Those who brought their cute doggies didn’t even seem like SMU students. Didn’t know animal day was today!! If not i would have brought Wacky HAHA.
Here’s a photo of wacky if you guys haven’t seem him before:
and joseph choo kept talking about sea elephant saying it was very cute. i really thought it looked like him, but i bet everyone thought i was joking.. anyway here is a photo of the sea elephant! (first time i heard of it)
yawn!!
i guess it’s adorable, in a fat lazy lardy way. HAHAHA. its akin to the bull terrier looking cute, because it looks retarded/idiotic.
come to think about it, that's probably how typical slit-eyed chinese will look if they were dogs.. eyes so small.
NOT A RACIST COMMENT! just find it really funny how beady and tiny their eyes are.
so talking about cute animals… I’ve realised i need to share what i think are some INSANELY CUTE animals that will totally PWN joseph’s sea elephant. Other than wacky, of course, i’ve already shown you his photo.
#1: Fennec Fox
AHHHHH cutee!!
The fennec fox is a desert fox that mostly lives in the wild, in some countries they can be kept as exotic pets. their ears are so large because they help to dissipate heat. I first saw them in a zoo, i think in berlin? i can’t rmb which country it was- i spent at least half an hour there, gushing about how cute they were. later on when i came back and started googling them, i was quite shocked and disgusted to see a video of them being fed GOLDFISH. yuck it’s worse than seeing a pretty girl smoke.
but they are still cute, love them! for a few years now i’ve been wishing i could have one or 2 of them as pets! hahaha
#2: Royal Antelope
looks like an antelope doll, not that i've seen an antelope doll before.
and what’s cuter than a royal antelope is a royal antelope calf!!! BABY ROYAL ANTELOPE!!!
ITS TINY!!
I tried to wiki it on my ipad before, but didn’t find much on it. Wikipedia says its only 25-30 cm tall, and weights around 3-4kg. THEY CAN LEAP UP TO 2.5 M in one bound if disturbed. OMG win. i’m 158cm and my standing broad jump was like 130cm. HAHAHAHA epic fail i had to go for 3rd period PE in vjc. then i passed! not much better though, jumped only 150-160 i think. LOL. okay back to cute animals. if fennec fox is not cute enough, i think this definitely beats joseph’s sea elephant.
and i have to show you how cute beagle puppies are!! when i first bought wacky he pretty much looked like this
not wacky, but close enough
simply TOO CUTE FOR WORDS. omg i have to find a photo of a baby fennec fox.
there you go!
k gonna go look for food or sth, bye! <3
